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I just talked to my mother... am kind of regretting having called (wanted to ask a question) because I know she's going to twist around what I said and I'm gonna get blasted by other family members over this... But...Once agian she is upset over work. Anytime anything happens she blaims it on "discrimination". It's always because she's "white". Today it's so and so getting the weekend off yet again when she'd already asked for it... Granted it's possible that's the reason (unfortunately discrimination exists in all forms) but I'm sorry, I've started to doubt that excuse long ago... Everything is because of it. I get her being upset over losing a weekend off... I really do. It's not right that she never gets one... But she's talking about going to her co-working and confronting her! Was saying that she's going to call her a brown noser to her face and stuff... I'm sorry, but that is not a good idea! She's gonna get herself fired that way. She flat out can't afford that! I just hope she calms down before she goes back in... unfortunately I have a feeling my grandmother will be called and that's just going to fuel the flames.
Keep your fingers crossed... It looks like I'm back on board for watching the baby starting in a couple weeks or so! It looks like today the baby will be staying w/ a sitter (non family although she practically is anyway) for the first time. One of my in-laws passed away this week and the Rosary is tonight... There's no way the little one could sit through that so we don't really have a choice. I trust the friend we're leaving her with... but still... nervous about the whole thing lol.I keep having really random and not so great dreams. One is a recurring one... I've had different versions of it for years. Basically, it's back to friend a... I keep dreaming that she's being really mean and well... bitchy.. about something or another. It's completely not like her. And it really bothers me when I have them. On top of that I dreamed that my husband and I were fighting a couple nights ago and last night I dreamed that he was trying to kill me w/ a bread knife! Of course that was just before we were in a boat in Africa w/ poachers... so I guess I forgave him despite the fact that I'd just kicked him out and told him I hated him :-(Aww.. The baby is looking at a book about body parts (upside down of course)... and pointing out hers and then to the book!Last night I got so frusterated w/ my husband (reason why I had the dream?). I was watching a show on TLC and he kept making really mean/aggrivating comments... It's not like he was really even watching it either (I didn't force him too, he was in the other room playing WOW). I know he likes to make stupid comments about shows he doesn't like... I usually just ignore him, but I snapped this time. I was trying to listen and he completely drowned out part of it... and it was talking about water birth info! Granted it's history isn't anything I need to know, but still. You know if it's just some stupid show like Strong Medicine (I'll admit it.. I like the show even though some of the stuff in it aggrivates me as much as it does him lol) or the show about the Duggars... but it wasn't. Worse, he was picking apart one comment made taken completely out of context because he wasn't listening to the whole thing. One of those moments where I just want to smack him upside the head..Sorry vent over.Hmmm... Can I stretch nap time another half hour? We used to do it at 11 and lately it's been 10:30 because she's waking up earlier. I'd really like to get it back to 11. I've got stuff to do so I should get off of here...
You know my husband does something really sweet like letting me have some time alone to go get my mom a low cholesterol cookbook that she needs...and then he turns around and aggrivates me in the same day! I asked him to wash one little casserole dish so I can start dinner tonight... just one. But no he plays on the comp until it's time to head to a friends house and as he's leaving... he starts going on about how he gets to have their cooking and how good it is and how it's always special occasion food. To make it worse we picked tonights meal because we haven't had it in a long time & it's a favourite of his!!!!
Exactly what I was afraid of happened... My FIL has decided that he's not comfortable w/ the birthing center... because there will be no "doctors" there! Now... my husband had said that we would still do it if he didn't "approve" but when we talked after that came out he was acting like he's having second thoughts as well... I managed to answer a couple of his questions, but I know I've still got my work cut out for me and honestly I'm a bit aggrivated. It's bad enough, hard enough, knowing I've got to deal w/ the family... but when they cause my husband to doubt... grrrrrrr!!!!I've already emailed the midwife, asked advice from some cafemom mommies and talked to my cousin... but still....
Why is it when there are 5 million other things going on and I'm already drained that something like this has to happen?I'm not going into the whole thng because I already did on my family blog... but the cat was bit by a brown recluse. So we're worried about us... Worried about her. They think she'll only have scarring, but there's still a small chance she will lose toes or foot/leg. I know she'll be ok even if that happens, but... it still has me pretty upset. On top of that we really can't afford this. Thankfully the vet is awesome and working with us like crazy to keep costs down. But still... Last night my husband was telling one of his friends about it and I heard the guy suggest that we may have to put her down instead if the bill gts to high. I ignored it... because I don't want to think about it... but I don't know what I'd do if we had to. She helped me get through the adjustment period after the wedding.. The baby is so attached to her. She goes around saying her name all the time... Anyways, I'm worrying about nothing I know...
